And no, I'm not talking about ghosts or poltergeists or whatever unseen supernatural beings that may lurk around us. I'm talking about the ghosts in my mind: those things that torment me and distract me from living a satisfactory life. In short, thoughts that keep me from falling asleep easily.
You see, every night when I'm in bed, trying to fall asleep, thoughts would come uninvited in my mind, giving me a million worries and regrets, making my life seem meaningless. I mean, I'd be making myself comfortable and getting ready for my journey to dreamland, when suddenly there they would come: "Hey did I do this? - Did I finish (insert whatever)? - Oh no, is tomorrow the (insert whatever)? - I think I forgot something - When I was very small, I used to (insert long-forgotten event) - I KNOW I forgot something- Someday I want to (insert whatever) - I'm so pissed with today: I mean, I was feeling great when (insert annoying event) - Funny! (insert funny scene) - Things to do tomorrow: first, (insert task), then (another task), and (task), oh and (you know the word) - Wish there's no class - Wish it would be morning, I still have to (insert errand) - Why the hell can't these things leave my mind alone?"
So, I might indeed be crazy. But don't blame me, please. I blame it on my lack of sleep because of the annoying little thoughts bombarding me. I would be very sleepy when I climb to bed, anticipating a night of rest, when the moment I lie down, these little fiends come rushing in. Often I really don't notice that I would be entertaining these thoughts, until some part of me nudges me to finally get some shut-eye.
I wouldn't be surprised if those were the fairy-folk's own doing - to prevent mere mortals from getting much-needed beauty sleep.
P. S. Alternative title for this post: "Thoughts That Go Bump In The Mind". Just a thought.
You see, every night when I'm in bed, trying to fall asleep, thoughts would come uninvited in my mind, giving me a million worries and regrets, making my life seem meaningless. I mean, I'd be making myself comfortable and getting ready for my journey to dreamland, when suddenly there they would come: "Hey did I do this? - Did I finish (insert whatever)? - Oh no, is tomorrow the (insert whatever)? - I think I forgot something - When I was very small, I used to (insert long-forgotten event) - I KNOW I forgot something- Someday I want to (insert whatever) - I'm so pissed with today: I mean, I was feeling great when (insert annoying event) - Funny! (insert funny scene) - Things to do tomorrow: first, (insert task), then (another task), and (task), oh and (you know the word) - Wish there's no class - Wish it would be morning, I still have to (insert errand) - Why the hell can't these things leave my mind alone?"
So, I might indeed be crazy. But don't blame me, please. I blame it on my lack of sleep because of the annoying little thoughts bombarding me. I would be very sleepy when I climb to bed, anticipating a night of rest, when the moment I lie down, these little fiends come rushing in. Often I really don't notice that I would be entertaining these thoughts, until some part of me nudges me to finally get some shut-eye.
I wouldn't be surprised if those were the fairy-folk's own doing - to prevent mere mortals from getting much-needed beauty sleep.
P. S. Alternative title for this post: "Thoughts That Go Bump In The Mind". Just a thought.
[I guess this is how thoughts overwhelm you. Pic from here.]
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